When Father asked me what I thought about him divorcing Mom, I wanted to smack him. I was sitting in the backseat of his car, so I couldn't reach his face. Wasn't he supposed to try and keep the family together? Betrayal at its finest, ladies and gentlemen.
But to be honest, I wanted him gone. It's true that hating someone is a lot easier when you can't see them. Yet, the kids needed their "Daddy," the guy who was a role model who was on one side fluffy like a teddy-bear and on the other, strong as a rock. So I said, No. No divorce. The kids need you. He smirked, as if he had already known my answer.
I proceeded to get out of the car and hightail home, trying my very best to forget his reply: That's what I thought, too. I couldn't have said it better myself.
To myself, I thought, You're such a self-sacrificing hypocrite. I couldn't have agreed more with the voice in my head.
For a slightly similar reason, I am very confused about my feelings towards my Father and unable to confront it. I know how it feels.
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It's nice to know that there are those who know what it feels like.
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It seems odd for a father to ask a child's opinion of the divorce before it has been decided upon. And if he wholeheartedly agreed with you.. does he blame your mother? Something seems off about his question and response.
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Lulu
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He is an excellent blamer of himself, yet he is always quick to justify and be generous of his actions.
DeleteHence the voices in my head.
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