I haven't written or posted as of late and now I find that the words jumbling and piling in my head are coming out at the wrong moments and coming out wrong.
Like how last week I was judging an audition and I yawned really big and loudly whispered "Boring..."
The potential candidate faltered and retreated into her already self-conscious self.
Like how a couple days ago I found myself singing about sex really loudly in church.
The other reason I haven't written is because...I put a halt to everything for the past two weeks. I was... numb. To my friends. Family. Life.
I pretended I didn't have emotion.
I just didn't care, and not in the good way of female empowerment but one of indifference.
So lonely. So tired.
Of what?
Me.
Like how last week I was judging an audition and I yawned really big and loudly whispered "Boring..."
The potential candidate faltered and retreated into her already self-conscious self.
Like how a couple days ago I found myself singing about sex really loudly in church.
The other reason I haven't written is because...I put a halt to everything for the past two weeks. I was... numb. To my friends. Family. Life.
I pretended I didn't have emotion.
I just didn't care, and not in the good way of female empowerment but one of indifference.
So lonely. So tired.
Of what?
Me.
Well... I don't think YOU are boring. I've been waiting for you to come around.
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Lulu
Breakfast After 10
I am glad to see you back, and like LuLu said, you're far from boring :)
ReplyDeleteYou are anything but boring! maybe it's the winter (if it's winter al all where you are right now) but verything seems to have turned into one frozen frame.
ReplyDeletecalm before the storm. a good kind of storm.
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L.
everything, sry!!!!!
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